I have completed a full revolution
A revolution of mind
A cycle of heart
And here I am back at the start.
It’s funny how much my life has these minor rotation-
as if my life ran like clockwork.
I guess in theory that’s what’s the desired objective
this collection of gears and cogs bundled in meat.
It’s what’s logical, mechanical, sensible.
Rise, play your part in society, sleep- Repeat
Emotional reactions are regulated by these ticks and tocks
The clicking with some- the clashing with others
Introduce a new gear to the clockwork of your life
and it’s just a matter of time
Before there’s strife.
Lonely, Understanding, Comfort, Independent, Completion, Control
Novelty, Innocence, Infatuation, Fleeting , Harmony
Pleasure , Exploration, Mystifying, Balance
Confusion, Evaporating, Illusion
Unending, Darkness, Inadequacy, Doubt
Liberating, Surrender, Rebirth, Enlightening, Empowerment.
One day I hope to stop the cogs,
Break the cycle two stop time
Three times I have been hurt
Before the revolution was complete.
Am I forever destined to strive for a companion piece?
My faith in change is waning with each turn.
Perhaps I should start to stop my yearn
Since there will never be an fix
To the clockwork of my life.
~Lauren Keim, 2010